My excitement grows. Each person I tell makes this more real. And slowly, I'm letting go of the fear. Not the fear about parenting - I expect that will be a lifetime of work. I mean the very specific fear about the possibility of loving a child for up to 10 days, and then having to give that child back. The realization is awakening in me that if I only get to be a dad for a little while, it's still something to be cherished. I'd been scared to share our news out of fear of disappointment, fear that it would be only temporary. It still might be. But I can't keep living with that fear.
So today I told lots of people. There's video proof below:
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Congratulations. This is so exciting. I know it is scary, but I think telling people and owning both the thrill of it and the scariness of whether it will really happen will help allay your fears.
ReplyDeleteDear Jose,
ReplyDeleteThis was so beautiful. It made me cry and brought back so many wonderful memories of when we adopted Michael. Michael has brought so much love and joy to our lives. Ican't imagine life without him. I wish you and Julia the very best and look forward to meeting your new daugher/son when I am in Atlanta again.
Love,
Sharon
wow... thank you for sharing the journey... the extended family awaits with open hearts and arms to accompany you guys on a wonderful and mysterious adventure. ¡Los quiero muchismo a los dos! With my love from Puerto Rico's shores, Laura Castro
ReplyDeleteRock on Ya'll! We're keeping all three of you in our thoughts.
ReplyDeleteVery exciting!
Jose, you are so great!!! I am totally setting up a stage at Easter. (I am thinking more like a flatbed trailer behind the tractor.) You have to sing this song! I know y'all might not be able to come but my prayer is that you can somehow. If not, I am putting it in my blacberry for next year...
ReplyDeleteI am so excited and we all should learn not to let fear/disappointment hold us back. that is one we all can relate to.
You will be a great dad.
Love, Kim